Tuesday, September 29, 2009
"Me" - time
Socialising is the greatest form of masochism. You put time, effort and money into meeting new people or catching up with old acquaintances…and then let these very people steal your peace of mind, increase your stress level and leave you disgusted.
The one thing that I really want to be is:
“Self-motivated to be happy” (as one of my wisest friends, Sus di puts it)
As each day goes by, I realise how badly I need to master, or at least acquire this skill. At the moment, I am far from it…depending on “external factors” for my daily dose of happiness.
Friendless, in a far-away land that has offered very few like-minded people, I absolutely MUST learn to be happy alone.
Wish I could be happy in my own company (which is hard…because I am quite boring unless drunk)
Wish I did not need "people" to talk to(I could talk to the trees or insects in my garden and am sure they would reciprocate better)
Wish I had as much fun reading a book or watching a movie as I do when I am with friends (which would also help build that dream library I want so badly)
Wish I did not need to call a hundred people in India to feel good (which would save a lot of money too)
Wish I wouldn’t let random comments from random people affect my peace of mind (which would let me concentrate on other more important things like cloud-watching or cleaning the toilet)
If only I could start enjoying the “me” time, I would be so much closer to the person I want to be.